thoughts

....i am....

..finding it harder and harder to find unique and genuine people who accept me for me, without expecting me to change

..finding it horrible that any stupid mistake can change my entire life

..finding it crushing that the person you thought you loved the most was just a lying jerk

..finding terrible that the divorce rate is not getting and better and its actually getting worse.

..finding un-nerving that there are people in jail being treated better than our soldiers fighting for our country and getting more luxuries than most people living on the streets

..finding it sad that people are losing their creativity and everything that makes them special bc they want to like everyone else

..finding it disgusting that men can be so heartless, self-serving and -ugh- just pigs.

..finding it unreal that 12 year olds have more money, clothes, purses and crap than i would ever want to have. 

..finding it annoying that our government is so corrupt and people dont even care or notice what is really going on.

..finding it scary that churches are becoming so bogus and fake that they dont even know the real teachings and people are just getting spoon-fed this bullshit [pardon my french] and they arent even caring about what it means and if it is true and not knowing what they really believe

..finding it horrid that i still can eat tons of sugar and junk food without gaining ten pounds over night.

..finding it aggrivating that some people will never apologize for what they have done to me.

..finding it sickening that girls just cant be themselves and judge each other for the stupidest things

...finding it refreshing that this is only temporary and there is better yet to come...

 

 

i refuse to look at the last year as crap decisions and sad storys and drama filled un-necessarys -- but as the biggest learning experience of my life to this point...

as much as i hate to admit it, the struggle and hard times are indeed the best times - you learn so so so much.

you always have a choice and a turning point coming up...

every decision you make effects your future -every one of them-